I was delighted I could spend a chunk of time with Colin and not feel like I was falling in love, but that it was/is a meaningful relationship. On the other hand, the fact we're not in love and it's not clear where this might head has me back to being insecure.
Arrgh.
I see my own insecurities, but I also see how I am not exactly the person Colin wants..or, to put it another way, his head is not bought in, even if his heart is.
And, of course, I am still seeing Wash (but not very often and more as a friend). And yes, Colin knows about all that.
Yep, confusion. But that's reality.
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