this weekend and on vacation in about 10 days--with Colin, then. Work is going well and my relationships seem to be fine, but I see how insecure I am and I need to manage that...if I don't hear from Colin for a couple of days I feel insecure, and I have to manage this one....
Kinds of things I don't know and can't rush but worry about:
Will we become a couple?
Will be become committed to one another? Are we now?What does that mean? (What if we don't?)
I am someone he could love? Do I match what he wants enough? (How about the fact I have no control over this one?)
Does he have significant faults I will not be able to accept or overlook? Will I face them? (I think so.)
..And so on...Yep, smitten. I am so looking forward to our being together for more than a week and getting to spend real time in one place...I think I will get to know him in a new way and with more depth than ever.
Sounds lovely! It's great, and I think a good sign, that you're looking forward to extended time together, rather than seeing it as something stressful.
Posted by: Lisa Williams | August 22, 2007 at 02:01 PM