I have no idea what I really want. Or how to actually get it. That's my conclusion of the week, and what I have started telling men I meet--"I am just not sure what I am looking for."
The translation of that would be that I am not sure if I want to meet/see someone else besides Wash right now, if I did I am not sure what qualities I would value most in that person, and I don't know if I can manage two relationships again--or whether I'd dump Wash (seems unthinkable).
And yet, although I know Wash isn't the one, I'm not ready to start looking for the one yet.So here I sit, in the middle of my life, waiting for the moment when I feel differently.
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