The six month mark

I am taking L.A.M's advice to try to let go of husband to heart.
While I cannot pretend that it isn't hard, I have to remember that I am so much happier
overall now that I am out of that crushing relationship.
While it is understandable to be sad--and sometimes bitter--I need to appreciate what
I have now.
I feel like I am adjusting to being a single person and building the friendships and support system I want to have.
I am also endless fascinated with meeting men--after so many years with one (often angry and depressed) man, it's enticing to meet and talk with different men and see what makes them tick.
On the sexual front I've been pretty cautious, but the feeling available and interested part is kind of great.
The more guys I talk with, the more I appreciate R. 
Perhaps we are both changing because of our connection, but I care for him a great deal and see how much he cares for me.
He's been a positive  force in my life, and he makes me smile.
I'm not ready to make big commitments and promises, but I've told him I care for him
--and he's very understanding about where I am right now--tho he doesn't want the details (thank god!) on anyone else I see (and I think he has no idea that I have been as curious a dater as I have been).
My friends and family have been great
The Kid is a rock
and my business partner is a saint.
So, I am lucky, and I am growing, and I am trying to be glad.
Thank you to everyone who reads this blog and share comments and thoughts--it means ALOT to me.

Comments

[L.A.M.]

Yeah YOU!!As I have told you before I am in a similar boat. Husband didn't want me, I mourned,cried, whatever. Then after 19 years of being married, and now not (separated) I feel so incredibly liberated! I totally understand your fascination with other men. You are wise to move forward, as you have..it is our time to experiment. My first date is Monday, AHHH!! Good luck Suzannah!! L.A.M.