Husband went to Oakland to look at apartments today.
I stayed home and tried to work, then went off to the library.
Took out lots of books, including one called Finding a Husband After 35 and another called The Boomer's Guide to Dating.
Silly, huh?
After the library, I cooked dinner: stir-fried chicken breast with ginger, scallions, onions, peppers and back bean sauce, rice, potatoes tossed with theme and olive oil.
Husband came back and we ate.
He talked about his apartment shopping experiences, then I came back to blog and send emails and he called some people.
Now it's 10 pm and I am thinking about how painful it is to be living with someone who doesn't want to live with me, doesn't want to be here, and doesn't love me.
Will being alone be better or worse?
Dammit, I am going to find out.
Hey,
I just read a few passages in your weblog. My heart really is with you for this moment as your pain and uncertainty are very apparent. The only thing another person can say to one in your situation is, I hope it turns out okay. My thoughts are that you will be fine but it will just take time.
Please take care of yourself...stay positive...
Michael
Posted by: michael x | March 06, 2005 at 10:17 PM